It all happened one Sunday afternoon. I had no true explanation of how I felt but simply put, I was just fed up. Tired of the day-to-day motions. The mediocrity of life. I felt like I was going into a deep abyss of pure normalcy. When I do create anything, I not only set out for it to be prolific but equally impactful. I could no longer examine the impact I had on souls. I wanted to get out of this rut.. desperately; so I decided to fast or what we call in the Digital Engagement world, “disconnect”. For a couple of weeks, I wanted to move away from any form of social media, television, senseless music, ANY distraction I had made apart of my everyday life. In place of these voids I reconnected with the lover of my soul. I went back to the threshing floor and learned how to worship God the way He initially intended me to. I studied, I prayed, I traveled and explored some amazing places, I wrote (Chapters of thoughts, Essays, poems, proses…)..I picked up my bible as well as a couple of old fashioned books and dove in. In order to find myself, the very essence of my being, I intentionally chose to seek my creator for my whole existence is buried in Him. I had a goal in mind and I needed a strategy to get there. Lead by the Spirit, I pinpointed areas that I believed were the makings of a more balanced life in Christ on earth.
My Vocation: Noticed I didn’t say profession. Anyone can have a profession and it can change at any moment with the evolution of society, the acquiring of another skill set or just the desire to change. A vocation on the other hand is what I believe is your calling. Your mission statement for life (and it would behoove you to create one if you don’t have one already) is an idea and your vocation is the action that brings that idea into fruition. I know that my mission, my purpose in life, is to be of philanthropic service to others. Asides from the music ministry, aside from the writing ministry, aside from the oh so many God-given gifts and talents, I do have a true affinity in reaching out to humanity. I can’t resist this pure euphoric feeling of self worth every time I bless someone … So I asked God to increase my capacity so that I can give to others.
…and so I prayed.
My Relationships: These encounters are what make life beautiful. To truly love someone else, to feel compassion or sympathy… that emotional connection is Jesus’ DNA manifested in us. Every relationship has a lesson to be learned no matter how grand or small it may be. They are living moments in the fact that they are ever advancing. If those relationships aren’t growing then that season is simply over. So I asked God to enhance my relationships and to surround me with those who will challenge me to be better in all aspects of life so I can in turn do the same for them.
…and so I sent “roses” to my loved ones and I prayed.
The Body: Getting the temple back in shape; From the inside out, crown to soles. I want to live long and see the fruits of my labor. I want to retire. I want to travel the world and impact souls. I want to one day relocate to the motherland after establishing a groundbreaking entrepreneurial empire… I still want to be a teacher in my old age and tell tales of how reckless I once was as a young woman with the world as her playground. I want a legacy so I can see a reflection of myself and know that I will live forever once I leave this place. So I asked God to be my Source of strength to move on even on the days when I don’t feel like it. I can’t do this unless I have a healthier lifestyle. Keeping the scripture, “faith without works is dead…” in mind
…I started implementing healthier habits throughout my day, exercising, rebuking the sweets and nutella addiction… and I prayed.
The Mind: Not being arrogant but I have always been a quick learner. Curious about everything. There is nothing I cannot learn. My thirst for knowledge varies over a wide range of topics and I love to be challenged intellectually. You want to capture my attention? Cause me to think and you have me at the palm of your hand. I remember reading “Jesus, CEO” and “Who Switched Off My Brain” in three days. Both literary works that causes the reader to think. It dawned on me that it’s not what you read but how you interpret it and your understanding of that information that reflects your degree of intelligence. In order for me to reach the goals and aspirations I have set in my heart and mind, I have to alter my thinking. So I asked God to broaden my understanding and align my mind with His will.
…and so I read my Word and I prayed.
Today, the Spirit. I am an (ex)sinner (ex because now redeemed by the power of the cross and Christ’s atonement lavished upon me) entirely saved by grace. I do want you to realize that this whole trimester was dedicated to building a stronger relationship with JESUS and to move away from legalism, away from routine, away from the things that were stunting my growth in the prophetic realm of the Spirit. I am a visionary that deeply desired a new experience because I constantly crave for more out of this mission called life. I had to change my desires and my perspective from what was surrounding me to what was above me. Knowing that there is something greater ahead of me is motivating but also knowing what I am living for makes all unnecessary concern cease. I am a constant work in progress but I know what to change and how to do it. So I asked God to continue empower me and strengthen the core of my inner-man through His Spirit. To remain by side and let His influence in me be influential to others…
…and I am praying.